Sometimes get the feeling of being alone in a crowd of people? The feeling of being out of place, even with you friends?

I really can't say that I've experienced that. I mean, I'm always surrounded by my friends and family that there really is no time for me to feel alone. But a lingering feeling hovers. I can't help but feel paranoid.

What if my jokes go too far?

What if I accidentally hurt them with my quips and statements?

What if I crossed the line?

What if I hit them below the belt?

I'm constantly thinking what to say next, just to control my sentences and words. How I contemplate on every word, every letter that I arrange to form a reply to their jabs, always careful, always nervous not to cross the line.