Mother's Day is just around the corner.

The day devoted to the light of our homes, the day where they get to feel special. The day where we can show them how much they really mean to us.

To my mom:

18 years.

For 18 years, you've been taking care of me.

For 18 years, you've put up with me and my whims.

For 18 years, you've toiled to make life easy for me.

For 18 years, you have awoken at 2:00am to get me ready for school.

For 18 years, you have arranged my bag for school.

For 18 years, you have slaved yourself in the kitchen to give us a hearthy meal.

For 18 years, you have sacrificed your own creature comforts to give me mine.

For 18 years, you have lectured me, disciplined me, for me to turn out okay.

For 18 years, you kept your pains inside, so I won't be affected.

For 18 years, you did reviewers so I won't have a hard time studying for exams.

For 18 years, you made sure I was safe.

For 18 years, you took care of me.

 

I know I have been a major pain in the neck, I have yelled at you for not giving me what I want, for not allowing me to go on outings during high school, for always bugging me to do chores.

But, as i grow older, I understand. I understand the pain you must have felt when I yelled at you. The hard time you had when I was out with friends. The hardships you endured in your age doing chores.

Kaya,

I've been a pain,

I've been selfish,

I've been conceited...

but see? I learned.

Sorry na ha. ;)

wow. It's been so long since I wrote something substantial here. My schedule is hectic, from Tagaytay to Baguio and right to Basilan. I'm not sure when we'll go to Basilan though. I was complaining on how boring my summer is, and now that I get to go around and explore, I wish to just stay home. The irony of it all.

The heat in Manila is unbearable. Especially when you just came from the north and has gotten used to sleeping without fans or airconditioners. I thought I could capture the scenic beauty of Baguio, but fate intervened. It rained heavily during my stay there and I couldn't get a single shot. I wasn't even able to go to Burnham Park, Cam John Hay, etc. How dismal. I decided to drown my sorrows by shopping. But all I could find that are worth buying are two necklaces. damn.

 

I bought a magazine on photography and saw a lens that I want. Its a zoom lens, but I think it costs more than 20k. Waaayy out of the budget. But when I told my father, he questioned me on why I need it, and how much it was. Feel ko ibibili niya ko. Nakakaguilty naman. I really don't want to pressure them on buying something that expensive. Even though I want it. It seems such a big step for an amateur like me. There's a cheaper alternative, however. 9k. cool.

It's May and I wish it would be enrollment time. I want to put those reshuffling rumors to rest. I want to see my friends again! missssyooouu guys.

 

Oh, and my sister lost her camera in Baguio. Stupid. ang sama ko. Strike two for her. First it was her Ipod, then her camera. The camera I bought for her. The one I bought using the money i got from selling my phone. I may sound bitter, and I am. careless little.... *

MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Family tree researcher - Tracing family tree Cool. ;)

Summer is here. BIG DEAL.

What's summer if not the TIME to do what you always wanted to do, right? But I just can't find something I want to do. Wait, that's not it. I want to do something, I just can't get up and go get it. 

I want to go to some cool place and take pictures. I want to be with my friends and have fun. I want to go to the malls and see gorgeous things that I would love to buy.

My summer isn't a complete flop. I would still get to go somewhere, albeit in a place where I go almost every weekend, my cousin is celebrating her birthday in Tagaytay and after that, hopefully, I could go to Baguio, and then straight to our province. ;)

 

I really can't wait for the enrollment. It's the time where all rumors of reshuffling will end. I just hope it's just that. RUMORS. Please let them be rumors.

TWO YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP.

 

HOW CAN THEY TAKE THAT AWAY FROM US? damn.

I know, we'll still be friends even though we're not blockmates anymore, but, iba padin na magkaklase kayo, di ba?

           

            Why do I keep on hoping? damn.

How long has it been since I wrote in my blog?

I should have lots to say about the clearance day, the day I could enjoy with my friends. But sadly, I was not able to go. Blame it on the supernatural forces that blocked my path to Nirvana. Damn.

So anyway, I watched a few episodes of Hana Kimi *jap version* and I found it cute. *Normally, I would find shows like this to be boring and corny, especially when dubbed in filipino* The story is cute and the rendering of the story is anime like. ;) I liked it and I bought a DVD.

My father arrived yesterday and we were rushing to go homr from tagaytay because he has no key to enter the house. I'm looking forward to practicing driving. With any luck I could drive to school this coming schoolyear. Pray that I will. Please.

 

Last Monday was infuriating.

I was excited in seeing our yearbook and I woke up early and went to UST under the scorching heat. When I got there, "wala pa yung yearbook, next week pa daw" It wasn't fun. Damn.

Okay, my drama blog entries are over. It was pms. WTF?! It was really just my conscience rearing its ugly head to bug me in my sleep. I've managed to bury it under a pile of memories, so my dramatic phase is over. NYAHAHA. I AM BACK.

 

It's so boring. So so boring. Maybe I'll clean my room just to ease the boredom, to make time pass. Yawn.

ROUTINE:

wake up-eat-TV-internet-TV-internet-eat-TV-internet-eat-TV-TV-internet-TV-sleep

Sometimes get the feeling of being alone in a crowd of people? The feeling of being out of place, even with you friends?

I really can't say that I've experienced that. I mean, I'm always surrounded by my friends and family that there really is no time for me to feel alone. But a lingering feeling hovers. I can't help but feel paranoid.

What if my jokes go too far?

What if I accidentally hurt them with my quips and statements?

What if I crossed the line?

What if I hit them below the belt?

I'm constantly thinking what to say next, just to control my sentences and words. How I contemplate on every word, every letter that I arrange to form a reply to their jabs, always careful, always nervous not to cross the line.

I know I've been wrong.

 

Making them do work for me.

Making them give me notes that I'm too lazy to write.

Making them move aside so I can sleep comfortably.

Making them feel bad just so I can feel better about myself.

Making them wait for nothing.

Making backstabing comments.

Making them do bad things just so I won't be the only one.

My superiority complex.

I'm really sorry. I'm only human. And yes, This is serious. I know I've hurt people I love and care about. I know I did some bad things that might even leave them scarred for life. But I know my wrongdoings and I'm trying my best to mend my ways. Give me time. Maybe a millenium. Or a Century. Or maybe a couple of months if you help :)

The outing was so much fun! From the jeep to the bus, it was an, let's say, an experience. The place was awesome, if not hidden from civilization. Seriously, It was so far away my ass hurt. And not in the good way. The ride to the the resort was fun. Full of laughter. Haha.

Nakakatawa yung lunch namin sobra. Tipid kung tipid.

"Oh, tig iisang piraso lang ng chicken ok? Mga 5 scoops lang ng rice. Magsauce na lang kayo guys"

Tapos yung dinner naman, Ang sarap nung liempo. Haha.

Si karen nagswimming. Hahahaha. Kahit wala siyang dalang damit.

Si Lou hindi kumain ng lunch. Awww. Tapos balak pa magskip ng dinner kasi nawala niya yung susi sa room namin. ;)

Si aikee laughtrip. Sumabit.

Sina Penpen at Dax, nagbus lang papunta sa resort.

Si Cookai, naka twopiece. Nax.

Si darts, Natuto lumangoy. Hehe.

Si carlo, nasa side lang. ;) Scurred sa water.

Si Kirby, ang bait. Lalo na nung sa MRT.

Si Ron, super gentleman. Pagaling ka ha. :)

*Ayoko na. May masabi pa kong iba*

Aikee, Lou, Chandra, Jhong and Revs: Simpleng Malandi, hahaha. Nagpapatigas lang tapos iiwanan na. HAHAHAHAHA. I know gets niyo toh.

Basta Ang saya. XD

Next time dapat marunong na tayo magdrive lahat. Para convoy na lang. ;)

It's been too long. I have lived for four days without any internet.

So, here I am, writing my entry to my blog in NOTEPAD. How dull. I've arranged all the photos I'm going to upload into folders to save time. It's living proof that I'm bored.

It's not all bad, though. The last day of classes was so much fun! We watched STEP UP 2 in SM north, although we did plan to watch it in Trinoma. Various forces prevented us from purchasing tickets. We ate in Yellow Cab courtesy of Me ann. *SUPER THANKS ME ANN!* After that we went to Ron's place for the last time in this school year. Next week will be our outing, Tuesday to be exact. I'm so excited because this only happens once a year, and I can't believe the speed of my mother's yes when I asked for permission. ;)

The next day we rode to Tagaytay to celebrate the Holy Week. I played in the makeshift driving range at the backyard. Golf is really hard, especially when I have to watch out for the clubs I'm using. The shaft must not have any scratches. My arms hurt after playing a few times. And I am the one retrieving the ball. WHERE'S MY CADDY? Another pastime was card games. We played strip poker during the night and I had to forfeit because I'm down to my underwear and I WILL NOT remove my shirt.

Tonight is Saturday and we *my family and I* spent the afternoon painting easter eggs. It's a competition among all of us to see which eggs are the best painted, best detailed, most funny, etc. A few hours ago we invited my tita's friend from a nearby house to judge the designs * We take it so seriously that there must be no biases(bracketing)* After much coaching and theatening, 5 out of 7 of the eggs I designed got into the winners* I wonder what my prize is? or prizes are?* YAY for ME. It was cute, though. Check out the pictures in my latest albums.

For tomorrow, all the eggs will be buried throughout the house and yard for us to find. There are also prizes at stake. Last year luck was not at my side for I only found 2 eggs out of 70. LOSER AKO.

I do believe its time to end this blog simply because it's late and I'm tired. Good night. I hope I can post this by Sunday night or Monday morning. ;)

I have always wanted to own an DSLR ever since my passion for photography flared up.

That will soon become reality as my father has said that he will buy me one. The problem is what DSLR? I'm deciding on Nikon and Canon. The d80 and the 40d or the 400d respectively. I want to cross out the 400d as my friend has one already and she said that she doesn't want someone with the same camera as hers. * she might do something evil* So I'm deciding on the other two. If the budget doesn't permit the two, the d40x is the one. But since the budget is not yet known,

WHICH IS BETTER, THE NIKON D80 or the CANON 40D?

 

I know I have a lot of professional photographers as my contacts in multiply and I value your opinions. =)

 

Two more days of grueling examinations. Two more days of classes. Two more days with my block. Two more days of laughter and talks. Before everything plunges into boredom.

This is my last year of general subjects. Farewell Math, Science and History! Goodbye Philosophy and Theology. Our journey has been fun and boring. Mostly boring.

Time really does fly when you're with the ones you love. *yes, it's only in my blog that I'll admit I love my block. I can't say it, as it ruins my EVILness, if there is such a word*

It's been fun these two years. I fondly remember the events that transpired:

Who can forget the

"Very well, indeed"?

Marcy Arellano? Sit Erect? How fun.

The superstar daughter of Mam Anonas?

Carlo's love for Vivian?

Sinai Youth Camp? Bondin' with the boys. ;)

Ron's super fun birthday parties?

Serica's obsession with you-know-what?

Jhong's departure to CSB?

Jhong's return?

Mam Pusta's fashionista status?

Koko Crunch?

Frances as an Economics Professor?

Bibliographical Annotations?

Boring Ethics?

<html>?

2nd Place in Markstrat?

Natural Science's recitation?

24?

The presentation in CA by the boys?

Inuman?

First Outing?

Lurlur?

1st Place in Broadquest?

Karunungan?

YM conference?

Issue no. 1?

Canon EOS 400D?

Term Paper?

And much much more...

How nostalgic. These events may have pressured us, made us cram like crazy and even made us shed some tears. But we did this together. We survived together. And we will graduate. Together.

If only memories like this can be placed in a box. To keep it safe. To keep us from forgetting. But it's not so. Time erases. But not for us to merely forget, but to make room for more memories that we would make. With our friends.

I end my blog, because I have to end somewhere.

TO THE GRADUATES OF 2008, Cheers! TO THE INCOMING SOPHOMORES, Cheers! TO THE INCOMING SENIORS, Cheers!

and to us,

THE INCOMING JUNIORS, Cheers!

 

 

 

CHEAT.

How I am familiar with this word. It has defined my assignments all through out high school. You can't blame me. Sometimes it gets so boring and stressful that you won't feel like doing you homeworks.

The moment I enter a room, "may assignment ka sa ganito? Pakopya naman!" And its just not me, you'll hear this statement everytime a student enters the room. It never bothered me that I get high scores from these assignments. After all, they only constitute 10 or 20 percent of grade.

THE ONE THING THAT I CANNOT DO IS CHEAT ON EXAMS. Okay, so I do sometimes, but that's out of sheer desperation and besides, my seatmate's paper is lying there waiting for my eyes to carress the answers. When I do it, my heart keeps pounding. I dread the teacher's wrath when she/he finds out I am cheating.

THERE'S NOTHING TO BE ECSTATIC ABOUT GETTING A HIGH SCORE IN AN EXAM WHEN YOU CHEATED.

 Sure, in front of your friends, you rub your high score in their faces, but deep down, you'll feel that you're hiding behind a mask. That it wasn't your brilliance or your knowledge that gave you that score, but your cheating skills. How dissapointing.

There's one thing I hate about cheaters during an exam. I know they didn't study and when they get a score higher than mine, *I studied my ass off* It just feels like I'm being cheated as well. WHY SHOULD YOU GET THE SAME OR A HIGHER SCORE THAN MINE WHEN YOU DID HALF THE WORK I DID?! Of course, I couldn't blab to the entire class that he/she cheated, without any proof. That's where it hurts the most. He gets a higher score, he gets a lot of attention he doesn't deserve.

*DISCLAIMER: this is a situation. I am not pertaining to anyone. This is just a description of what I feel when something like that happens.*

If I were you, I'd stop. College is a whole lot different from high school. You won't just get a smack on the wrist for cheating. You'll get sent straight the SWDB.

39 questions you've never done before!

1. Where do you hang your towel to dry
after showering?
-- Who knows? My mother does it. ;)

2. What kind of mouse pad do you have?
-- I have no mouse pad. *LOSER*

3. Do you brush your hair with a comb
or a brush?
--BOTH

4. In your opinion, who do you think
is the hottest celebrity?
-- Angelina Jolie for the women, and Chris Evans and Rodrigo Santoro for the men.

5. You have a project due tomorrow, do
you use tape or glue?
-- Depends. I hate glue, though. Too messy.

6. Chicken or pork?
-- Pork

7. By the time you get to school, is it
still dark?
-- Sometimes. *LOSER NANAMAN excited pumasok*

8. If you had a choice to be a unicorn
or mermaid which would it be?
-- unicorn. More graceful.

9. What color is your shirt?
-- White

10. What time does the sun usually
set?
-- I will not be bothered with questions that are not about me.

11. What/who do you think of last
before you go to sleep?
-- Many people.

12. AC or fan?
-- Both again. I need the two to keep cool.

13. Do you wear braces?
-- No.

14. Can you do a hand stand?
-- No. Not planning to do that.

15. If you were the opposite sex, how
would you style your hair?
-- I'll have it long up to half the back. Then let it be natural.

16. What level English are you in?
-- Level? What?

17. Jessica Simpson or Alba?
-- Jessica ALba is wayy hotter.

18. Which subject is worse, English or
Math?
-- Math!

19. What's one thing you really want
to do this very moment?
-- Run a company *AMBISYOSO*

20. What movie are you embarrassed to
admit you've watched?
-- Uh. Porn movies?

21. CD player or iPOD?
-- iPOD duh.

22. Would you rather spin upside down
going 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into
water?
-- Drop to the water.

23. Whats your favorite shape?
-- circle.

24. What do you have planned for the
weekend?
-- LTS. *scare the learner*

25. Have you ever gone ice skating?
-- Sadly, no. *LOSSSEEERRR!*

26. If you were put in a room with
nothing except for a pencil and paper,
what would you do?
-- Nothing. Sayang ung papel.

27. Is it always easy finding your
remote every time you want to watch TV?
-- Yes it is. It's hanging around my neck. *ADIK*

28. How was your day?
-- cool.

29. Do you grow your nails, bite or
cut them?
-- I grow them to unimaginable lenghts then cut them. Repeat process.

30. Describe your handwriting:
-- forever changing

31. Do you consider yourself a
stalker?
-- If you don't count as having spies around the houses of my crushes as stalking, then NO.

32. Do you bruise easily?
-- yes. But I heal all too quickly.

33. There`s nothing on TV except Barney
and Japanese news what do you do?
-- Japanese news.

34. Do you know more then 3 myspace
codes?
-- no.

35. You got an essay due, you either
can type or write in pen, which will it
be?
-- Type it.

36. Do you wear jeans to relax at
home?
-- no. Stupid.

37. Describe yourself using three
words.
-- Ang gwapo ko. *FEELING*

38. do you have a crush right now? or
still looking?
-- I have. I think I already have 20 so far.

39. Do you like ice in your drink?
-- YES. Hot coke and pepsi tastes so yucky.

In about an hour, February 14 will arrive. Valentines? Phooey.

 

It's just a reason for couples to be extra sweet and cuddly. How lame.

 

Is it me, or am I bitter? Oh yeah, I'm bitter. I recieved 30 chocolate lollipops from <censored>. AM I THAT GLUTTONOUS? damn.

I know I've been bad. I know I said some things that are painful.

And sometimes, I feel a twinge of guilt whenever I do it. Just a twinge. Not enough to make me stop.

 

I feel I'm unfair, when you've been so nice to me, and here I am stabbing you in the back with knives, chainsaws, axes, swords, spears. And then letting you bleed to death while I watch and laugh, *HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA* ahem.. I got carried away.

I am sure someday I could stop. And I would. I just hope it's not too late.

You might look for an apology here, but you're going to have to be dissapointed, but I don't do apologies. YET. Wait for 2009, my year ender blog will contain my apologies.